To my soul mate

Dear Mr. Right,

At this moment in my life where I don't have a stable job and I don't have a life, but I am positive that someday, with all my efforts I will someday be on the greener side of life. Listening to this song makes me realize that somehow you are out there.

I know somewhere out there you are sitting in your room wondering where I am, same goes for me. I am sitting patiently here in this tiny dark room. I know someday when I finally get the chance to meet you it'll be just like the movies where time will stop and without a word we'll know that it's the time that we both had been waiting for.
You'll express your feelings in front of me (not by phone, haha!)You'll love me for who I am... we'll go camping, we'll play on the beach, we'll watch South Park, we'll cook and eat dinner together, we'll tell each other about our days, we'll be transparent with each other, we'll be each other's best friend and we'll sleep together in each other's arms.

^____^ I'm here waiting ;) whoever you are...

I thought I'm over you :(

Graaaabeee...
natapos na ang new year, Valentines na... my dearest bestfriend confessed to me over the phone that he is inlove with me... :( pero d din nag work out...

akala ko fully naka get over na ako kay Anthony, but heck, I reread our previous conversations sa skype and *BOOM!!!* fresh na fresh nanaman ung ala ala... haha... nakakatuwa balikan ung past, nakakamiss... sana pde maulit ulit.

I miss him...

So, update sa moving on process ko with Aj...

Hell, I still can't help but look at our old photos. I tried to look around dating other guys trying to have fun but... No one was as caring for me as he is. I hear a lot of my friends telling me that I'm pretty and kind, my standards are high and I'm not going to have a hard time finding someone who would love me. Pero, here's one thing for sure.... I might find someone else who would love me someday, but I will never find another Aj. I wish I can stash out my guitar and sing "use somebody" to him like now.
Hell, I could definitely use someone like him and all he knows and how he speak. Every night, I pray na bigyan ako ni God ng someone like him, if not, I dont wanna take anyone else seriously kung hindi lang kagaya niya. I tried to date someone else pero kawawa lang yung guy, I can feel my heart sealed.

I wish I can tell him everything I have in my mind now... I'm speaking my mind out right now, this is exactly whats on my mind right now and I really really really miss him, his voice, his touch, his sarcasm, his smile, his he is sooo fun to be with and I admit I am still madly inlove with him. I wish he knows.

Lesson learned: 1 Never say Never

Sabi nga nila mahirap na bawiin ang salita oras na bitiwan mo to,

ilang bes na ako tinuruan ng life about this pero bakit d pa din ako matuto tuto...

Hay, sinara ko pa din yung pinto. Ang tanga ko din, tanga ako kasi sinara ko yung pinto pero magiging tanga pa din ako kung hahayaan kong may communication pa din kami. Pero sana manlang manatili 'yung connection namin as friends. Ang lungkot malaman yung fact na d ko na ulit siya makakausap.

Haaay.... mahirap, msyado matindi yung love, kapag tumuloy pa din kaming nag uusap, magiging kami nanaman... :(

Ang daming bagay na nag papa alala sa akin about him, like the I ♥ U

Masaya ako na narealize niya yung worth ko bago tuluyang mag sara ung pinto.

Sinubukan ko na makipag date sa iba pero wala ung feelings ko. Nasakaniya pa din.

Sana maka move on na ako. Wala na kasi.

Ang bilis...ang bilis

Haaay, nakaka miss mag salita gamit ang sariling wika...

utang uta na ako kaka ingles... nakakapagod... pero di ako susuko dito.

Parang kelan lang, March 2010, buwan kung kelan umalis ako ng pinas... ngayon dec 2010 na, ilang buwan na din pala nakalipas...

tatlong buwan na din pala ang nakalipas nang mag break kami ni Linus kasi d ko alam kung kailan ako makakabalik, masyado nang kompikado kaya pinakawalan ko na... kaso di ko pa napapakawalan e may nakasungkit na agad... hahaha xD

mabaliw baliw ako nun (kunyari ang hindi) kaya sumali akong e-harmony. Ayun, mabilis kong nakalimutan si Linus at nainlove ako sa isang lalaking nag ngangaang Anthony. ang bilis ng pangyayari, October 8 kami ni Linus nag break, tapos nag meet kami ni Anthony ng October 11 ata yun tapos nainlove ako ng todo todo... kaso hindi din nag tagal, msyado maraming kapalpakan. ang daming alibi ayaw na lang diretsohin na ayaw sakin. Nakaka banas.

haaay... as of now.... ^_^

move on!